Thank you Lord for making my day :) :) :)
but they depend on how she decides to go about it.
if she decides that she will take me back, then that’s that and we live together happily ever after. I’m hoping she will take this option.
However, if she says she doesn’t want me in her life anymore then i have two options.
I could hollow away here, missing her. Hurting and wasting my time convincing her to take me back, having no success. Sitting here dull and miserable, continuing to write songs of heartbreak and apology and somehow hoping that she will hear them. Hoping that any minute she will change her mind and run back to me, clinging onto any chance.
I can take it on the chin, take it as an experience and learn a lesson from all of this. Take some time to better myself, work on the things that I need to improve about myself. Focus on my university degree, go out and have fun with my true friends, as well as make new ones. And maybe one day we may get back together, when we are both more mature and have established ourselves in this world, so that we can truly provide for each other’s needs and give ourselves completely, unlike now when we are young and vulnerable.
i’ve got some tough decisions ahead.